Anniversary - [Tribute to Jen]

Wow, today is my 4 month anniversary with Steve...although to me it feels like so much longer. Oh so many stories... you see, before Steve and I started going out (in June), there were months prior to that where I liked him. I first noticed him at a kitchen tea in early November..then again at Summer camp in late December. I took a little more notice in February at a concert when he sat next to me part way through and it was all out in the open (well at amongst my girlfriends and sister anyway), in April after touch football. Not long til Jen's mum had figured it out and well anyone who didn't know at Jen's party (either because they had left or completely missed Steve and I holding hands), might have picked it up at church two days later when Steve was asked if he had a girlfriend and he said maybe... I received a fair amount of nudging and pokes after that... so yes that afternoon we started going out and it's been lovely ever since...he knows what I would consider my three biggest secrets (or rather the things I don't go shoulting out to the world) and he has accepted them and has been loving and supportive constantly.

The only hard thing was learning how to read his mind... not understanding why he did certain things or why he said certain things...but now I pretty much know and it's lovely.

But it wouldn't have been so easy without my awesome girls...Jen in particular. My darling, sweetie... so precious and so special to me... you help me to keep my self on track and live my life for God... I know I sometimes get caught up with Steve and it's hard to keep my promise of not leaving you out when he and I are being coupley and I hope you understand as I try my hardest to keep you both happy. You were there first, you were there when I needed you most and I'm not about to let all that go. I love you Jen and I cherrish the fun times we have, the times we can cry together, the times we can be serious together... I cherrish my own life because of the way you have helped me to build it and continue to help me live it. I love you more than a friend, as the word friend sounds so inadequate when looking at everything we've been through... you know I couldn't have done it without you and I love watching the way God is using you for his purposes. You amaze me. Your strength and vulnerability. Your smarts and your dumbs (:P). Your creativity and your spark for life and God especially. You are beautiful in every single way. Never forget that. Ever.