The Big No-No

I am a hopeless romantic. Movies and tv portray them to be normal people who dream of a more romantic existence, or just live a life filled with romantic gestures. But I’m here to say that it is not so easy being a hopeless romantic. Take tv shows for example. If I get into a tv show and the writers dangle a potential couple in front of the audience, I get really into it and get caught up in the whole thing. Whether it is excitedly anticipating the episodes to come where they will finally get together or if it is living in my own dream world where they do get together even if the show never acknowledges such a union.

Worse than that though, is when I get so into a show that I read up on it on sites such as wikipedia or imdb and even though they have a spoilers warning, I am weak and I read the spoilers!!! Why do I do that? Almost every time, I am disappointed with what I’ve read, because the writers don’t want everything to work out in the end. They don’t want to be predictable so they go and ruin everything! Ok so occasionally I’ll read something that I think is good, or fantastic even, but then there is the waiting. As it seems America owns everything, the information is all different. The dates are wrong and so I have to add 3 months and guess a possible date or I know that America has the dvd’s out and I get tempted to buy them online so I don’t have to wait anymore.

It makes me feel like I’m going mental. I can function fairly normal when I don’t think or talk about these shows, but if the topic comes up or if a memory or idea pos into my mind, the downward spiral of my sanity begins!!!

So why am I so passionate about tv? Don’t ask me. It’s like an involuntary reflex. Like someone is pushing a button and it makes all my senses react to that particular media. You know, reflecting on the protagonists in theses shows, maybe I’m a feminist at heart…all of them seem to have strong feminine figures who are independent and don’t follow all the rules but stand up for what they believe in and even if they don’t always react the way I want them to when it comes to romantic interactions, they are strangely aware of their emotions and how their emotions manipulate reality (something I feel I do quite well).

Well in conclusion, as much as I love wikipedia and imdb, they only lead to disappointment, over-excitement and eventually death of fun, happiness, anticipation and my sanity.